I posted on my facebook a while back asking people if they've had a revelation lately. Well, I'm going to share a little about my revelation. I went to the doctor recently to find out what was wrong with me. I sort of thought maybe I was depressed, but thought surely there was something else wrong. I didn't have all the classic depression symptoms, so surely that wasn't really the case. The doctor ran blood tests and some x-rays and everything checked ok. So, on Zoloft I went. I started my treatment last Wednesday. I'm only a week into it and I can already tell a huge difference.
It's funny to me how our minds can play tricks on us. Before starting Zoloft I wasn't 100% sure I was depressed. But, now that my mind is a little clearer I can see plainly that I am. Now I have no doubt I've been in a depression for over a year now. Depression can be different for everyone. Mine pretty much made me a sloth who didn't really care about certain things. The prospect of visitors was scary because my house was in complete disorder. My school work suffered completely. My relationship with Matt suffered too because I didn’t have the energy to do anything fun. My body ached all over and I was tired out very easily.
So, I’m keeping this blog up a little just to journal my walk through depression therapy. For now I’m just taking Zoloft. So far it seems to be just what I needed. This week I’ve actually been very busy at home without even realizing it. Tuesday night I cleaned my kitchen, cleaned off my desk and washed clothes. That’s normal you might think, but for me that was amazing. I didn’t even have to force myself to do them, I just did them. Last night was very similar. I cleaned off my patio and enjoyed watering my plants for the first time in a long time. Did you notice that word…enjoyed. I enjoyed something for once and didn’t view it as a chore.
Week one down and already I’m feeling better and getting active! God is Awesome!!!
