God's Will

I've been listening to the new Matthew West CD, Something To Say. One song really got my attention. I'm going to put take the lyrics and put them in my own words here to relay this message. The song speaks to me, but the lyrics for the song are a little crazy. It's different if you listen to it. Here it goes. If you google "MATTHEW WEST THE CENTER LYRICS" you can find a web page that has the song on there.

THE CENTER (my altered version.)

I got a feeling as a matter of fact, It’s like my whole world just came under attack!
And I hear a voice tellin’ me to turn back, because I must be onto something.
It happens every single time I get close to Everything I know is good and right and so true.
It’s like somebody doesn’t want me to love You, And I must be onto something.

So help me hold on, and Help me be strong.
Because I don’t wanna move unless You move me!

I wanna know how it feels to be standing in the center of Your will for me.
I wanna know what surrender means. Keep me in the center of Your will for me.

God forbid I start to think I’m on a roll now, because I do believe there is a battle for my soul now.
And I can feel the world fighting for control now.
I must be onto something.
So help me hold on just a little bit longer, because all this struggle’s gonna do is make me stronger.
This is the everyday prayer of my heart, I just wanna stay where You are.

I wanna know how it feels to be standing in the center of Your will for me.
I wanna know what surrender means. Keep me in the center of Your will for me

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Something I'm wanting is to be right in the middle of God's will for my life. That's so hard to do. It's also hard to remember that His will for my life can be very different for His will for someone else. What He's called me to do may not be what He's called you to do. That makes life hard!

What If

What if all you know life to be was over in an instant. What if you woke up one day and couldn’t speak and couldn’t move. You’re not dead, but you feel that you might as well be. You can’t care for your children, you can’t work, you can’t go to church, and you can’t talk to your best friend and tell her what you’re feeling. Basically, everything you take for granted is useless now. Nothing is as it was, nothing is as it should be, and nothing seems to be the word that describes you now. All that is around you is different, but God is still there. He is the only one that sees your tears, He is the only one that knows what you’re feeling, and He is the only one you can communicate with.

I think that is where God wants us sometimes. We tend to reach out to Him most when things around crumble. If everything is removed from your life, you have nothing more to do than to speak to Him. Notice, that’s really all you can do at that point. But, don’t you think God wants to talk to you now also, when your life is good, or normal? More than you know.

Need some encouragement right now or a push to get closer to God? Go watch the three part documentary on Matthew West’s blog. You’ll have to scroll down to watch each part in order.

Mother's Day

I had an amazing Mother's Day! We spent the day with my family. My great-grandmother was there and looked AMAZING! (I'll have to add pictures later.) I am always inspired to see her. She had all odds against her being the longest living MD Anderson Brain Cancer Surgery survivor! She might not get out all the words she wants to say...but that doesn't mean she doesn't have a lot to say! It would be amazing to hear her stories if she was able to share them.

I'm back

Well, I'm back on the web with more than ever to share. Well, not really...but just thought I'd get back on here. I've been going through a lot the past year and kinda in my own little shell. I just figured it might be time to open up again. It's usually healing and helpful.

So, today is National Day of Prayer. Did you know that? If you listen to Focus on the Family you wouldn't have missed it. Yesterday they showed the most amazing prayers of a few children. It broke my heart to hear these little ones raise their voice up to God. Isn't that what we're suppose to be doing? My prayer today is that revival would spread all over America. I pray for personal revival because it starts individually. It starts in my heart! It starts in your heart! I'm guilty of asking God to bring me closer to Him, to help me feel Him. Do you know what He wants me to do? He wants me to come closer to Him. (not the other way around.) He's already right next to me...I'm just not reaching out to Him.

My goal for the rest of this year is to journal my walk with God. I pray that it inspires you, I hope it connects with others and I hope it opens discussion for others to share a little of what they are going through too.